triggering memories... [actual blog starts after the ****]

i think there is a direct correlation between dead week and the number of blogs i post...

i also think/know that there is an exponential correlation between the amount of time i waste on the internet with how late it is in dead week.

Yeah...i actually took the time to create a graph of the time i've wasted...of course those number are all exaggerated seeing as there are not more than 24 hours in one day...

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so what i want to talk about is something interesting that i talked to my friend with today.
we talked about triggering memories and the difference between 추억 (Reminiscence) and 기억 (Memory).


i've had times where i randomly smell a certain scent and i get completely stopped in my tracks because of the strength of the memory and emotions. I get a rush of feelings where my heart just feels heavy and my head is clouded. i know that sounds stupid but if you've experienced it, you know exactly what i'm talking about. Even once, i was just standing there with that segment of my life just flashing before my eyes. I felt all the emotions i felt then, the happiness, the funny times, the anger, the conflicts. and the worst part is, i was left with that lingering feeling of disappointment that i ended that relationship with. and also a longing to have another relationship to replace the bad of the old one.

if you know me well, you know i have a huge connection to music, whether it be playing/performing or just listening to music. when i listen to music, i don't just hear the sounds and rhythms of the song, i actually listen to the words and how the notes correlate with the emotion of the situation played out in the song. sometimes, i attach myself to a song and it's lyrics because they way i can express the way i feel at the moment with that song.

now when i listen to certain songs, i can remember exactly how i felt in the moment, who i was with, who i liked, who i was dating, etc. etc. just by a song. How can a person be so emotionally connected to a grouping of words and sentences set to a beat? i don't even know.

so to end this. i want to add a little bit of substance.

Reminiscing: 추억: this kind of memory is more of a heart memory from the past...like a more emotional one. as compared to Memory: 기억: which is more of what is happening now and a head memory.