blockade.

sleep is so crucial to life. ugh. how did i even survive last semester's finals?!

anyways. i have several really close friends. and for some of them...things just don't work out. it seems that no matter what, things are constantly unfair for them. and it frustrates me that there is nothing i can physically do about it besides give them the best advice i can and listen to them.

i think it's strange that people [including myself...guys, i'm not THAT heartless] can be so emotionally attached to someone, not necessarily bf/gf relationship but also friendship, that their unfortunate situations can really affect them.

it's like my friends problems become my problems. even when the situation doesn't directly involve me. and i guess it's a good thing that happens...i consider myself a great friend [to certain people] but honestly, where does all the empathy come from?

i'm only 19. i have a few good/bad life experiences under my belt, but in no way am i experienced at life. i don't think anyone can fully be experienced at life. you just gotta live your life as best as you can. and "best" is defined differently for everyone. but if you live your life just for yourself, then you gotta be pretty lonely. i guess caring and sharing makes life just that much better.

it's 4:23am. i just reread that blog. i have no idea where that came from. or where it went. shit. it makes no sense. i'ma post it anyways.