miserably honest::honestly miserable.

what is going on?
why am i in these situations?
what am i doing with my life?
why don't things just work out like they used to?
why am i so stressed?
what are my priorities?
what's going to happen in the next few weeks?
why am i so miserable?
how am i going to dig myself out of this rut?
is it even possible to dig myself out of this?
could there possibly be enough brown nosing in the world to save my ass?
what if things don't work out?
will people give me the benefit of the doubt?
will i become another statistic?
could i be any more desperate?
what direction is my life pointed in?
can i handle the circumstances?
will people even listen to me?
will they take my stories as just excuses?
will they disregard my every plea?
i trust God to take care of things, but have i done enough on my part to begin with?
why can't i think straight?
will God let me fall on this one?
is He going to teach me a lesson?
i pray that doesn't happen but if it does, will i learn?
will God take my desparation into consideration?
have i fallen too far behind to catch up?
why is hindsight so clear?
can i survive through this?
why am i so pathetic?

what. the. fuck. is. going. on.